Dying by Instalment

Young man, hear me. Nothing is beyond God. This message is written to remind you of the power of and in Jesus. It does not matter what you are going through or how dark your journey seems right now. God is still involved in your path. He has not withdrawn His hand from your life. He has not stopped watching over you. He has not abandoned your process of growth and restoration.

But let us be sincere. You are not even sure of yourself anymore. You wake up each day and feel something slipping away. You feel yourself sinking instead of rising. Your strength is dropping. Your clarity is fading. Your confidence is thinning. Things are happening within you that you cannot even explain in words. You feel tired, drained, confused, and overwhelmed. And although your heart is screaming, your mouth cannot speak.

You have prayed and prayed.

You have cried and cried.

You have trusted and waited.

You have gone to doctors who could not find answers.

You have climbed mountains to see prophets who could not offer solutions.

You have searched everywhere that people told you to search, but nothing has changed.

Your life feels stuck.

Your hope feels weak.

Your inner man feels empty.

And now you are tired beyond words. You feel exhausted in a way sleep cannot cure. You feel like life is leaving you in small portions. You feel like your courage is leaking out. You feel like you are dying slowly, dying quietly, dying by instalment. Each day feels like another small piece of you is disappearing. The dreams you carried proudly now feel blurry. The ambitions that once burned in your chest now feel cold. Your passion is falling. Your self-worth is shrinking. Your energy is dissolving. Your joy is becoming silent. Your fire is turning to smoke.

Young man, listen again. This is not the end of your story. What you see now is not the final chapter. You are not finished. A change is coming. A shift is already forming. And when it comes, it will come with a force that will silence every doubt and every fear.

There is a new way you must approach your life. A new way you must reach out. Consider the woman with the issue of blood. She suffered for twelve long years. Twelve years of losing blood, which meant she was losing life. She was fading daily. She was dying by instalment. She had tried everything men suggested. She had spent her money, her strength, her hope. And nothing worked for her.

But one day she made a decision. She pushed her pain aside. She pressed through the crowd. She ignored her shame. She ignored her weakness. She ignored her fear. She said to herself, If I can just touch Jesus, my life will change. She reached out intentionally. She reached out purposefully. And with one touch, she stepped out of death into life. Her story changed instantly. Her dignity returned. Her hope was revived. Her joy was restored.

Young man, that is your invitation today. Rise up. Reach out. Touch Jesus intentionally and purposefully. The answer you have searched for is not in the prophets. It is not in the mountains. It is not in men. It is not in your own strength. It is only in Jesus.

Many gather around Him with empty touches. But your touch must be different. It must be the touch of a man who is tired of dying slowly. The touch of a man who refuses to let life drain out of him. The touch of a man who wants restoration. Throw everything on Him. Your pain. Your fear. Your silence. Your disappointments. Your broken expectations. Your tiredness. Your weakness. Give all of it to Him.

Do not look in any other direction. Fix your gaze on Jesus. Fix your faith on Jesus. Fix your hope on Jesus.

Your answer will come. And when it comes, it will surprise you. Your life will be rebuilt. Your strength will return. Your hope will rise. Your joy will overflow. And you will rejoice because you chose to reach out fully and truly to Jesus.

Reference: Mark 5

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